Just got this message on my Facebook. It's from a very very dear person I met only once, but geez... you know, it's those people who are the best, right? Like... you met them only one fucking time, but you remember it for all eternity, because it had such an impact on you. And now, months later, she wrote me this message randomly, and it's just so full of yay.

"(...) some friends and I are gonna go to the ocean sometime soon, sitting at the beach, maybe camping, just feeling free, listening to beautiful sounds at the campfire... wanna come with me?"

Hell yes.

See, it's really awkward to feel this all, because to every other person on the planet, having friends is normal. But to me, the one who's avoiding contact with other people for almost one year, it's just awesome and a relief to know that there are people who just like you no matter how and who you are, and who won't betray you, and well... I don't have words to describe it any better. It just feels great being liked. I know I am liked and loved by so many people, especially here on LJ, but it's great to actually have someone to tell me.

And while I'm writing this, I can't believe that I've gone through this time, because it feels so strange to me that I pushed everyone away. But well, it happened... and like I wrote the other day... I think it's over. Weird. Thoughts are crazy.

And V... I said it so many many times before and I don't want to wear it off by repeating myself, but I can't help but saying that I love you, and I love having you in my life, and I am thankful... so thankful... that you've been with me all the time, cheering me up, making me feel good when I was down, and I honestly think that you have been a major part of my "recovery". Thank you so much. I wish I could meet you someday, because you deserve the biggest hug possible, and we need to have or autumn night one day.

Rumor has it, that Angelina Jolie will play Catwoman in the upcoming incarnation of Batman. If that's true, I can die as a happy man.

I'm really gonna be my old self again which is awesome and so whee. Yaypants. =)

Also, Carole King is beyond awesome. Just in case you didn't know that before.

Also also, I still do have my afore-mentioned crush on my internet friend, and I'm unsure if I should reveal it.

And also also also: friends are awesome.

That's all, folks.

Hi. I'm doing really great! How are you? =D

I have a certain feeling that my emotional wounds in regard to people and what they've done to me have healed. I have felt this a couple of weeks ago already, but I wasn't certain until a few days ago. But it's true. I have opened myself to a few new people I met recently, and it doesn't hurt. In fact, I'm pretty curious to get to know them better, and it's not anymore that I just want to run away from them. So, after all these baby steps (and while I'm typing this I remember that I made an LJ entry about my willing to try and make all these baby steps) I think I've finally succeeded. We'll see. I won't say anything for sure, but this period of me sitting at home, being extremely emotionally hurt, and just wanting to get away from it all, seems to be over, and I love it.

Now I just need to find a way how to prevent myself from being so hurt again. I mean, I'll never be able to change the fact that anyone can hurt me or betray my trust or anything, but I'm sure I'll find a way of dealing with it better. We'll see about that, too.

Also, after eight years, I've finally found a therapist, and the counseling sessions will begin come September 1st. I'm somewhat excited, even though I was a little confused at our first hearing. Turns out, I need not one, but two therapies at the same time, because my problems are on two different fields, for which I need two different specialists. Yay me and my weirdness.

So, that was pretty much the most private update from me you'll get in a long time. Back to the old Whee-ish self of talking about nonsense and bullshit.

I always imagined my brother being gay. Turns out, he has a girlfriend now. Well, poop.

(I'm happy for him, though. Relationships are awesome. And... while we're on that topic... I still don't have photos of that wedding anniversary. Bleh.)

I want to get myself a pet. It obviously won't be a cat or a dog, because either need too much attention, and as I'm out of the house most of the day, it should be something that can be left alone without getting depressed or something. I really don't like reptiles, and hamsters are silly. A white shark would be splendid, but my bath tub is a little too small for that. So... what the hell should I get?

Haven't done these in a long time...

From mondaysabitch

Random Joy

1. Have you ever read a self-help book and if so was it useful to you?
No. I prefer trying and making my own experiences. I did read a book about how to quit smoking, though. However, I didn't follow their suggestions, I did it my own way.

2. If you could have one thing made out of pure gold,what would you choose?
,-)

3. What one word do you overuse the most?
"Fuck".

4. Who is the least charming person you have ever met?
I don't know. It was probably that someone in my video store whose smile swept me off my feet.

5. What article of clothing that you either gave or threw away do you wish you could have back?
Nothing. I'm fine with what I have.

I'm in love with a new TV show called 'Dead Like Me'. I heard about it ages ago already but never came around to watch it until now, and I'm hooked. I love it when that happens; it's so rare that I find a TV show that I really like, and this one is definitely one of them. Too bad that there are only two seasons of it, but I heard there'll be a direct-to-DVD movie and (if the ratings are good) it might be continued as a show. We'll see.

What's your favorite TV show at the moment, and why? And, is there an all-time TV show that you can watch millions and millions of times? Tell me.

Cute overload... omg. I giggled like a schoolgirl when I saw these, followed by a huge "Awww". I'm silly. Yay. =)

Hey sweeties and beloved darlings, I'm back! The wedding was ... so totally awesome. Everything was exactly the way we planned it - if not even better. As we speak, the pictures are being burned on a DVD, because there are many many millions of it. As soon as that's done, I'ma select a few, and then post a more detailed entry about the whole thing. But really, it was so funny, and I'll never forget that day. They were both so happy... I loved it. =)

Tomorrow, I'm leaving home for a three-day adventurama, naming the 25th wedding anniversary of my parents. This is gonna be a really awesome experience, mainly because my family never had such a big party ever, and everyone is really excited about it. And this, surprisingly, includes me. Me, the usually grumpy one who hates family parties, but this time it's different, because I have planned it all, which means, everything's going to be exactly the way I want it to be. Control freaks ftw.

But I jest. A lot of people have worked very hard for that day to come, and it proves how many people really love my parents. That makes me incredibly grateful, because my parents truly have had times in their lives that weren't all bright and gloomy, and so it's nice to see how many people are there who really care about them.

The best part of the anniversary will definitely be when they're renewing their vows. Even more exciting is the fact, that my mother doesn't have the slightest idea that she is going to marry her husband again. It's all part of the master plan, but I'm sure she'll love it. After that, we'll be having a wooonderful party with really good food, drinking, dancing, and all that extravaganza. Some people are even going to sing (yesh, I'm one of them), and well... let's just say it's gonna be a blast. Haven't had something that special to look forward to in a long time, and I can just say, I'm so happy, and I can't wait for it all to happen.

When I'm home, I'll tell you how it was, and you'll eventually even see pictures of me and my full beard, as a couple of you requested. Stay tuned.

Today it occured to me that I might be having a little crush on someone I only know from the internet. This truly never happened to me before, and I'm 100% sure that (despite the feeling might be mutual) there won't come anything out of it, because let's face it: I know this person, like I said, only from the internet. However, this feeling is awesome. I've forgotten what it's like to have a crush on someone. Yay. =)

Oh, and there's another awesome thing. I've grown a full beard over the last weeks, because quite a few people told me I'd look good with one, so I tried it, and well... they were right. The awesome thing about it is, that now, as it's grown for quite some time, it's become so soft. The thought of it makes me giggle, but yeah... that beard is a cool thing, and I won't take it off any time soon.

A little message to: chanhassen, cinzie, cinzie_224, l_krimsonlake_l, pamplemousse2, pchavez, perpetualtravel, raleigh69, sternchen12, and xpinkxamazingx

I don't mean to be rude, but... I've removed you from my friends list long ago - in some cases literally months - so please do me the favor and remove me too.

Sweet. I got a three-hour ban on my WoW account for "exploiting" because my silly raid group decided to try the "girly tactic" on a boss. Useless to say that I didn't want to try it, but what can you do if the raid leader decides it? Anyway... they started, and what happened? A game master interrupted the fight, telling us to stop. Instead of doing so, the raid leader started arguing like "Yeah, if it's so bad why don't you patch it, dude?".

Had I been the game master, I would have acted the same, I think. Thus I can understand the reason for this ban. However, I don't understand why I have been banned particularly, only because I was part of that group? But well, it's only three hours. I just hope that this won't have a negative effect on my account, because I heard a permanent ban follows easily if you get another three-hour ban. Or something like that. I'll contact a game master as soon as my account's unbanned. And then, I'll leave that guild, because I really don't want to have anything to do with stupid assholes like them.

Also, I have decided not to filter out entries anymore. This is my journal, and I write about whatever the shit I want. Deal with it.

I might be giving up on this journal permanently. For one exception, the feedback of my coming back was quite underwhelming, and what's the point really in writing a journal when no one reads and comments it?

So, thanks for all the fish, but now the fun is over. Tootles.

I noticed something fundamental. I only get these weird thoughts and this weird moody feeling when I stay up too late. So, I won't stay up too long anymore.

Good night.

This is major. Not only as a German, but also as someone 'green', I was totally delighted when I read this. Totally fuckin' awesome. Makes me want to sing that Captain Planet song... =P

Hey babies, this is a quick update for all you lovelies who decided not to learn German and read my journal over there (=P). All is well on my side, I'm feeling physically better, and I'm back at work. Completely didn't know how much I had missed it. The colleagues that is, not the work itself. This is why I'm still looking for a new job, and since I learned that my degree qualifies me to work in human resources as opposite to my year-long belief, I'll try that one, because I loved HR during my traineeship. Out of all office jobs I would want to do, that's definitely the top, so why not trying? I know I can't work in a more creative job (which would be my dream job), so I'll have to make the best of what I can.

My private life is as boring as it used to be. Still single, and happy, and I continue to waste my time on Warcraft. I can proudly say that I now've added another 70 to my list, and that I also (and finally) saw "the light" and created my first Alliance character. Despite my strong disgust for the Elekk mount, I did start a Draenei, and what I can say... the Alliance rocks totally. Never knew I could be one to say that.

So, you see, I'm the usual self, very awesome with a boring touch, and just because I'm on hiatus here doesn't mean that I'm gone indefinitely. I just learned to love writing in German, because sometimes it's a little easier to say what I want, though I think my English is quite well. But I think you know what I mean. However, I miss you, and my darling Virgina's comment made me realize that I should come by here more often, and I will. Promised.

Hope you're all well, take care, and much love!

Your
W.

I've grown a bit tired of writing in English, so I started a journal in German. Definitely not sure if I'll keep it, but at the moment it seems nice, so yarr. If you want to add me, hop over to echtzeit and do it.